Monday, December 21, 2009

When it snows, ain't it thrillin...

When your nose gets a chillin'...

My nose was way chillin' - but I had a very Christmasy weekend all by myself, taking a stroll while the snow fell on Saturday and then walking around in Central Park yesterday, trying to take it all in as I prepare to leave NYC tomorrow for a week and a half at home with The Parents, Snow White & Her Dwarves, and Auntie Judy!







Then, off I went to Rockefeller Center to see the tree - not one of my must do's since it's way too crowded and annoying but I was in for a surprise because I ran into my personal hero - HELLO KITTY!!!!!
Oh yeah, and the tree was pretty too!

Friday, December 11, 2009

"Il faut vivre et non pas seulement exister"

(one must live and not just exist)

Like A Blessing

Rice

It grew in the black mud.
It grew under the tiger's orange paws.
Its stems thicker than candles, and as straight.
Its leaves like the feathers of egrets,

but green.

The grains cresting, wanting to burst.
Oh, blood of the tiger.

I don't want you to just sit at the table.
I don't want you just to eat, and be content.
I want you to walk into the fields
Where the water is shining, and the rice has risen.
I want you to stand there,
far from the white tablecloth.
I want you to fill your hands with mud,
like a blessing.


~Mary Oliver

Tuesday, December 01, 2009



Well, I think I pissed 'em off because boy oh boy did I screw something up yesterday and boy oh boy did I think all hope was lost ... I thought all was rolling along, all's right with the world and then 4pm came with a boom and I realized I forgot to do something and it was LOST FOREVER!!!!!!!!! I almost started to cry I was so upset (FYI, this all Work Stuff, so I am being dramatic because one should never cry about Work Stuff, only Real Life Stuff) and tried and tried again to come up with some sort of solution, called my favorite heroic IT Dude - he had no resolution.

Then, it hit me - the answer! WOO HOO! Called IT Dude, found out it was possible with his assistance, I was rescued and all is back to being smooth again. Whew!

The fairies have forgiven me.

There's a lesson here - I am horrible at doing 5 million things at once, I am awful when I get disorganized and chaotic, both in mind and physical space. So I need to slow the hell down, concentrate and focus and I won't have to go through the major anxiety attack over Work Stuff again...at least until the next crisis I guess.

Now, it's a new day, a new month, my FAVORITE month, lovely chill December, promises of Christmas and snow and I'd like to say people tend to be nicer at this time of year but I got shoved and was given the evil eye too many times this morning on the train so maybe I'll save that sentiment til it proves true. I'm going to try to be nicer I think...that's the goal for today - be joyful, be grateful, be peaceful. And then maybe it will carry on to tomorrow and the next day and to others around me and on and on... see how easy it is?

Right. On to coffee and plunging into Work Stuff then...